@&$%!!!!!!

So last October I went to the NY State Society on Aging conference and managed to schmooze the head of the Hartford Foundation Pre-Dissertation committee until he told me exactly what I needed to do to win a grant. The conversation ended with "you should definitely reapply" and a follow up email lead to me getting a gig teaching the intro policy course at Hunter this summer.

I lined up a recommendation from the professor at my University he most admires.

I spent money on official transcripts.

I worked on my application essay.

Today I went to download the application to complete it and . . . there's no pre-dissertation grant this year.

F*****************************************CK!!!!!!!!

Because, yeah, my time isn't valuable and limited or anything.